Sometimes....

I wish I was a fucking mute. I hate hate HATE when people tell me I talk too much. It's so belittling. I can't stand it. It makes me want to die. It's so embarrassing. I hate myself more and more everytime it happens. I fucking hate having to see friends and family. Most of the time it's not even meeting the family that's the problem. I can't fucking stand MY family always making these comments. The more it happens the more I wish I was some kind of social recluse. I can't help how I am. I enjoy meeting new people. I do. Anyone who knows me can tell you this much. I can be perfectly charming and I don't have a problem with arguing my point. But none of this lot do that. No one wants to do anything. No one wants to ask the questions that probably should be asked. No one wants to ask for the help. No one. But when I do it they'll be the first to criticize or to tell me to shut up. People who think they're so different from their parent's stubborn ways soon realise they are quite simply no different. Well the entire world can fuck off. I'm sick of it. I'm not taking part in these antics anymore. I am sick of being made a joke. I am funny. Laugh with me not at me.